The top is new but the skirt is not. I wore this for work on Friday. The skirt is short but I have shorts underneath which is why I think I have more of a "muffin top" than I normally would. Be careful when layering clothes!
Speaking of "muffin tops," originally, I looked at these pictures and thought "oh shit, I look fat" but then I decided so what? We see so many images of very skinny models (alternative and mainstream) that I wanted to show that I am far from having the "perfect" body. I want to show my readers that I have flaws, that in my own way, I am beautiful.
Yes, I am losing weight and I did lose a lot of it but I am struggling. I would much rather celebrate what I have accomplished and to continue to take care of myself than by feeling sorry for myself.
In the end, as much as I was originally ashamed of these photos, I am damned proud. I am one bad ass woman! I carried a baby to term and as a result, I don't have the same body I used to! I am happy and that is important. I much rather have a few little lumps on me than being that bag of bones I used to be when I was younger.
Sometimes we need to cherish the body we have vs the body we want.
When my husband sees me, he sees a beautiful woman.
When my son sees me, he sees his mom and he tells me that I am beautiful too.
When my friends see me, they see a friend who is willing to be there for them.
I will not starve myself in order to conform to someone else's beauty standards. One day at a time. One pound at a time.