The story begins last summer when I purchased an R2D2 bathing suit as an impulse buy (yes, I am THAT geeky) and I never really wore it.
I was so stressed out by wearing this bathing suit to the water slides - the ONLY one I own because it showed way too much of my thighs that I didn't want to go anymore. It is sad. No one should feel this way. No one should feel ashamed of their bodies to the point they are thinking of purposely missing an activity.
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Here are some of the funny thoughts I had with regards to wearing that bathing suit. It all started with the way I saw myself in that bathing suit and then it escalated to the fact I was paranoid about it becoming see-through in the water:
"My thighs jiggle"
" Fuck, I am pale. What if they get blinded by it in the sun?"
"Oh shit! I am going to see my coworkers in their bathing suits!"
"My bathing suit is white...what if it gets wet? ..... shit.... THEY ARE GOING TO SEE ME NAKED! NO ONE WANTS THAT! It's like having those stereotypical nightmares of going to school in your underwear or something. It would be so embarrassing like when a guy gets called to the blackboard in school!"
Visions of me standing in a faded R2 bathing suit with my bits exposed became a little too much for me because the last thing I want is any of my coworkers to see ANYTHING resembling a camel or a camel's toe on me! Add in my own personal insecurities about my body and the idea of wearing a bathing suit became less appealing. I honestly doubt they would have let me on the slides in shorts and a t-shirt so I knew if I wanted to have fun, I would have to find something to wear! An hour before the stores closed, the night before the activity, I got in my car and hit the local mall. This time, my impulse buying was a lot better. I got a very nice one piece that covered the areas I was super self conscious about. I even bought a cute bag to go with the bathing suit!
In the end, I realized that I was silly, that I let my own personal insecurities and anxiety get the best of me but by wearing something I felt comfortable in made me relax and enjoy my afternoon! I had so much fun! In the end, I really didn't care what I looked like. The lesson of the day: never let your own personal views on your body image ruin your day!
So there you have it. A day in the life of Sylvie!
Please excuse the photo quality and the boxes, I never go in that room and keep forgetting to move them! What I love about this bathing suit is that I can adjust the bottom. I can decide whether or not I want to show more skin, perfect for covering my thighs!